"Self pity is our worst enemy, and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in the world."
- Helen Keller1880-1968, Blind and Deaf Educator

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

BFN

Well- I gave it all I could. Can't say I didn't do everything humanly possible to bring a mini me into this world. For the first time ever I was 5 days late and actually beginning to fantasize again. Joke's on me, it seems.

I'll take that hope into my next chapter. I started BCP today for an August "alternative family building activity" (is that cryptic enough for the non-knowers?).

Wish me luck. I'll need all of you to lean on as I grieve, accept things things I cannot change, heal, move on, and become ready to receive new life within me- all in 8 weeks and counting...

11 comments:

Zil said...

Hugs. I'm sorry about the BFN. I so admire your positive outlook for the future. Having just returned from Disney, I believe that wishes come true and all stories have a happy ending. May you be blessed with both.

Monique said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your daughter and the cruelty & stress of ttc.

Mrs. Spit said...

I'm really sorry. I was really hopeful.

Lorraine said...

I'm just so sorry - sorry for the BFN and for Sally Ann, and that you're grieving your way through this even as you embark on your next step.

Cryptic and clear as a bell, my dear...

Cara said...

Lisa- my heart breaks along with you as you let go and move forward.

I'm here...you know that. Well, away for a week...then here. But call if you need to.

BagMomma said...

Hugs. Stay strong. Will be wishing for both of us.

Kami said...

Good luck Lisa. I'm sorry about the BFN

Reba said...

I'm so sorry about the BFN :(

I hope you'll post a picture of your Jizo when the new one arrives, and Sally Ann's garden.

elizabeth said...

I'm so sorry.

mrsmuelly said...

Many, many hugs to you. That just sucks...plain and simple. I'll just say that I greatly admire you, and I'll be here hoping and praying. And my shoulder will be here if you need it.

Natalie said...

I'm so sorry about your BFN.... even more sorry about you having to concede and move on to another plan. Many hugs to you.