"Self pity is our worst enemy, and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in the world."
- Helen Keller1880-1968, Blind and Deaf Educator

Saturday, June 20, 2009

In anticipation of Father's Day

Well apparently Hallmark doesn't make cards for bereaved fathers who have lost their babies. I tried two stores near my home with a score of 0-2. I guess if I had some forethought, I could have found something online. Oh well.

I think I'll actually be more sad tomorrow than hubby. He really didn't get to bond with Sally Ann. My theory is that women bond with their children while pregnant, once they begin to feel the baby move. Men, I believe, bond after birth, when they can hold and feel their precious baby in their arms. Nonetheless, the road that we've been on will certainly bring up some feelings tomorrow. I just hope I am in a place where I can be there for him like he has been there for me over these past 4 years.

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On another note, I got a disturbing message yesterday afternoon from the Hell nurse at my fertility clinic. The committee has reviewed my file and they think I should see a hematologist before the procedure. Fine. But- they recommend my ceasing the BCP until the consult, which will put my transfer back a month. No way. You can blow me, miss nurse.

I am not doing anything until Monday when I can discuss this more rationally. I was on BCP for years with no issue. I have no intention of pushing this back a month so that I can have the consult. I'd rather start blood thinners now if I need to but don't tell me, after I have been sitting around for the past few months with my finger up my butt waiting that I need to postpone another month. No no no no- no can do. Sorry, Ma'am- but we're doing it my way this time.

Wow- I feel so much better now...

9 comments:

Natalie said...

Ha!!! yes. Effing hell, wait more? No effing way. Damn, the wait sucks so freaking bad.

Lisa DG said...

I wish I was a patient person. I have learned to become much more patient over the last FOUR PLUS YEARS. But I do not subscribe to the adage that all good things come to those who wait.

Lorraine said...

The BCP can affect the results of some blood tests. My protein S can be off because of the pill - it;s one of the reasons that the pill can cause clots in some people.

If the test is really off when you're on the pill, then it doesn't matter - it would be off if you were pregnant anyway. You would have to be on the heparin just to protect your doctor from a lawsuit. Call the hematologist directly!

mrsmuelly said...

Agreed...no, no, no. YOU get to decide. Hope the hematologist has some answers for you.

Lisa DG said...

I guess the sqeaky wheel DOES get the grease- I have a coveted hematology appointment with the head doctor at the medical center I go to on Thursday. Funny how they can fit me in when they need to.

Kim said...

I am loving your attitude. Made me smile. Blow me miss nurse, indeed, let the hematologist tell you what you need to do.

Kami said...

Good for you! It does pay to be the squeaky wheel.

I hope father's day went ok.

Monique said...

I hope father's day wasn't too hard for you both. xo

Travelwahine said...

Wishing you luck. And thinking of you!