"Self pity is our worst enemy, and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in the world."
- Helen Keller1880-1968, Blind and Deaf Educator

Monday, February 23, 2009

Hmm. Day after Day 1 Eve

Aunt flow hasn't showed yet. I'm not usually ever late, but I took a test just in case- negative. Even though I knew the way it would end up, from all the practice, I still held out that ray of hope. I am am just as sad as ever about another loss.

For those of you who have not been through this, each month is a loss. Certainly it is not like the loss I had when I lost Sally Ann, but still it is a sharp pain. I've lost the hope and dreams I make each month. This time, I lose the dream of a Thanksgiving baby, all my family gathering around to take care of things for our feast while I lay back in bed nursing my Sagittarius child. And her (like how I called her a she?) godmother is also Sagittarius. How great is that?

Don't feel too sorry for me. This is the third or fourth loss of the "Thanksgiving baby." While it doesn't get easier, per say, at least I know I'll make it through.


Cara said...

Lisa - been thinking lots about you. Late AF's without cause are the worst blow of them all.


Kami said...

I will feel sorry for you anyway. So what if it is the third or fourth loss? True, I think it gets easier to deal with the individual losses (more from practice than anything imho), but the collective losses seem to just get harder.

I hope, somehow, the missing AF stays missing and a miracle has occurred.

Travelwahine said...

I'm glad to see you posting again. Holding you in my heart.

Jane G said...

Sorry about the BFN. Thinking of you xx