"Self pity is our worst enemy, and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in the world."
- Helen Keller1880-1968, Blind and Deaf Educator

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Blowing Off Steam

Sometimes every girl needs to blow off a little steam. Mind you, blowing off now is distinctly different than my single days. Tonight, I thought trying my hand at some grey goose and a hot tub with my husband might be fun.

As the night wore on, it was me, my dvr'd episodes of Swingtown (CBS on Friday night at 10 pm est), and dancing to great 70's songs. I would have felt silly with others around, but the old friend called the "vodka drunk" kept me company. I find myself at 2:00 am with my husband sleeping like a baby. Oh- I almost didn't mention it. Got close but I am not quite there yet. Baby. For now, my baby will be Lola- my sweet little doggie. Not the same as part of me, yet she loves unconditionally. Sweet dreams.

1 comment:

Nicky laird said...

You do whatever you haveto do to make yourself feel better for at least a little while, and if vodka does it go for it! I know I had many vodka nights. You have just made it through another night, and today you will be getting through another day, I know when my husband returned to work and the other kids went back to school, and the well wishers were worn out of kind words, i had a decision to make either I let this grif consume me or I get up and i fight for my future, I chose the latter and every day after that I felt stronger, at times empowered, hell if I had just gone through this and I was still breathing then there wre no boundrys to what i could achieve. Remeber the old saying What doesnt kill us makes us stronger!