Thursday, April 15, 2010
Anxiety Sets In as the Date Draws Near
I am so excited as the date gets closer. My c-section is less than 2 weeks away. But the fear is setting in.
Will I get my life's dream? Will it be taken away from me in a nano second like before? Yesterday we had a scare that brought us into the doctor. I thought I didn't feel the baby move and we rushed in. The baby really wasn't moving much. After about 30 minutes on the non stress machine and a cup of very cold water, she was moving up a storm. Her heart rate was good and I was getting some contractions.
Now I don't know if I convinced myself that something was wrong. Doc says it happens to everyone, not just the dead baby mamas. It made me feel better. Still, I hope these two weeks don't kill me.
Attached are some of the most recent pics of me from a few weeks ago.