"Self pity is our worst enemy, and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in the world."
- Helen Keller1880-1968, Blind and Deaf Educator

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

32 weeks, 4 pounds, 14 ounces

Baby is doing well so far- growing well, moving lots. I'm holding my breath yet feeling more secure about her. I can't wait to hold her. I mean- let's not have a premie, but I am counting the days until we meet.

I go for another 3D u/s this weekend- can't wait to see her pretty face again. I am also going to my very own baby shower. I was hesitant to even tolerate one before the birth, but I'll take the risk this time and spend an afternoon celebrating what almost surely will be- with friends who love me and will be there for me either way.

Funny- I used to hate baby showers. I would put on my fake smile and pretend that it didn't hurt that I was still childless in the presence of pregnant women and women with children. It was a torment that I put myself through because I really wanted to be there for those whom I loved. But it hurt. It was a sad and lonely feeling.

I wonder if I will feel weird this weekend...I am not sure that one can ever leave behind the infertile or the dead baby mama persona. Maybe all that will make me more grateful and appreciative of what lies ahead. Time will tell. Wish me luck...

8 comments:

Lorraine said...

I hope you can enjoy your shower and that just being with your friends and being able to celebrate this time will be the focus.

The good news is that 32 weeks is a major milestone - hang in there for a while longer, but at least you know that you're in the home stretch!

Kami said...

I am so glad you are getting a shower. I wouldn't let my friends give me one, but after the fact I wish I had. May you enjoy it and celebrate this coming baby!

Reba said...

enjoy your u/s and shower! i wouldn't let anyone give me one either but i definitely wish i had now. i was just too worried something would go wrong. you know how it is. hooray for 32 weeks.

Bee Cee said...

Enjoy your shower, you deserve it. We don't have them here in the UK, so it's saved me from painful past experiences.

I'm 31 weeks today...we're both getting there!

sarah said...

I hope the sweet out weighs the bitter. ((HUGS))

Summer said...

Hope you had a good time at your shower!

areyoukiddingme said...

I hope your shower was wonderful, and that you could enjoy it. Not much longer to go!

Zil said...

I love the pictures. She's beautiful!!!