"Self pity is our worst enemy, and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in the world."
- Helen Keller1880-1968, Blind and Deaf Educator

Saturday, February 27, 2010

60 days and counting

It has been decided that I will undergo a scheduled c-section on April 28th. That means, barring any unforeseen tragedy or early delivery, I will meet my sweetie cakes 60 days from today. I am so excited now. I can't even believe it. Still I preface "unforeseen tragedy." I don't think that can ever change. It is just the nature of who I am today- the new woman I became after my baby has died and my heart was ripped out from within me.

But for my baby number 2, I owe it to her to find a warm and welcoming stance. She cannot be my second choice. She is just as important to me as baby number 1. And, after all, she is all I have now.


Hope said...

I'm so so so happy for you! I just gave birth to my 2nd baby, after losing my first.

I know what you mean when you added "unforesen circumstances" It's impossible to just be blindly happy after experiencing a loss. We can never go back to that again. But that being said, when your little one is born, I think you will appreciate him/her even more, because you know how special, and beautiful, and simply amazing it is that they are here. This is what I experienced, at least.

Here's to an uneventful 60 days and a very happy delivery! Can't wait to hear the good news when he/she arrives!

You will love them both, and appreciate them both even more once your 2nd one is here.

Lorraine said...

Yeah, I always preface everything with some kind of caveat about unforeseen circumstances.

I hope you have none of them in the next 60 days - just time to reflect and prepare and know that you'll always have room in your heart for them both.

Bee Cee said...

Wow - how exciting to know the date you will meet your daughter. I am sure that the days will fly by now!

Kami said...

Having a date must make it so much more tangible, but harder to wait at the same time.

After having one live baby, I feel like I have more expectiona that this third baby will live, but I still feel the need to add that little caveat like, "if he or she lives . . . "

areyoukiddingme said...

Of course, you preface with unforseen tragedy - we all learn from experience. Your caution will not temper your joy when she finally arrives, and she will never feel like a second choice. Good luck with the waiting...

Zil said...

Counting the days with you :)