"Self pity is our worst enemy, and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in the world."
- Helen Keller1880-1968, Blind and Deaf Educator

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Happy Birthday, Sally Ann


I built up so much to this day, being worried and anxious about what it would feel like- how would I handle it? Would my world come crashing down? Honestly, it feels much like yesterday and much like I suspect tomorrow will feel. Every day is hard when you have lost a child. Infertility is just like salt on the wound.


But today is Sally Ann's birthday and there is no time for self pity. I picked and put some flowers in her garden. My hubby and I placed the memorial stone, crystals and shells yesterday in preparation. I scattered some of her ashes there, along with some rosemary that I got at a funeral for my friend's twins who died too soon. The Rosemary package reads "the act of scattering some (rosemary) and keeping the rest symbolically recognizes love that will forever live...some to keep and some to give."


I love you Sally Ann. You gave me hope, vulnerability, unconditional love, and compassion in your life cut short. I will give your hope, vulnerability, unconditional love and compassion to the world in the way I live my life. Happy Birthday. I love you now and always.

10 comments:

Natalie said...

What a beautiful little garden. Happy birthday, Sally Ann. You are very loved and very missed in this world.

Reba said...

Happy first birthday Sally Ann. Wish you were here where you belong, with your mama.

mrsmuelly said...

Happy birthday sweet Sally Ann!

The garden is beautiful, and your words about her changing your life are also beautiful. I wish she were with you today. Much love.

Lorraine said...

A beautiful sentiment - she is truly celebrated.

Kim said...

Happy Birthday, beloved little Sally Ann.

The memorial garden is very beautiful although I wholeheartedly wish there was no need for it in your yard. Hugs to you as you remember your sweet girl.

Kami said...

What a beautiful tribute to your daughter.

Happy Birthday, Sally Ann.

Monique said...

Happy Birthday, Sally Ann. I wish you were here. xoxo

Zil said...

Happy birthday Sally Ann. The memorial stone is beautiful. The rosemary poignant.

Thinking of you and your little girl.

Michele said...

happy birthday to your precious daughter. thinking of you.

Bella said...

Happy birthday to your beautiful Sally Ann. May she sleep well with the angels. My thoughts and prayers are with you both.