"Self pity is our worst enemy, and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in the world."
- Helen Keller1880-1968, Blind and Deaf Educator

Monday, March 2, 2009


We're all trying to keep warm here in snowy New England. I couldn't think of a better time to drive to Boston for an ultrasound than today. They say we should have over 15 inches when this all is said and done.

My great husband did the driving. I am so lucky and he is so patient. At least I took the day off today. I am thankful for the small things- like the rest of the day at home, that I am getting along with my hubby so well, that we are being more playful lately (like when we first got married). I guess all the worrying and depression I have been feeling has been getting old. I need to remember that this is my life. I can choose to be sad or happy, even in the face of repeated disappointment. It's my choice.

I know it is easy to say all this on my day 7- not as easy on a day 1. For today I will choose happiness and worry about tomorrow when it gets here.

On a total separate note, I went to an old friend's birthday party this past weekend. For the first time in a long time I partied like a rock star. Drank multiple martinis and don't remember much after about 10 pm. They say I had a good time. I lost my favorite shirt (yes I was wearing something under it), an earring, my necklace and my blackberry. Oh- and the heel on my Fendi boots fell off. Yahoo. I can't do that more than once every few years...I guess I needed to blow off some steam. Ya think?

And my husband still loves me. What more can I ask for?

Oh yeah- a baby.


mrsmuelly said...

Wow, that does sound cold! What a great DH to drive you through all that snow.

Your weekend sounds like a total blast. That had to be a seriously crazy night. Do they have pictures? You might want to check before someone posts them up on their facebook!!!

Lorraine said...

I guess it's easy to miss those NE winters from the coolish raininess of southern California... but I loved having real winter in Rhode Island. The after-storm landscape is just so amazingly beautiful. Of course, RI warmed up so fast that we mostly ended up with a lot of dirty slush.

Sounds like quite a party - I think I'll have to get someone to throw one like that around here!

Natalie said...

15 inches?! Oh man, that is more than I had heard....

I hope you are able to find parts of the old you in there somewhere.

Cara said...

Wow...you partied like it was 1999, or some year kinda like that!

Good for you...we all need it. Think of me as I head to St. Louis on Thursday. No Bad Weather Please??? is my current chant.

Glad you guys are doing well.

Jane G said...

The party sounds like just what you needed :)

Zil said...

Lisa - You are so inspiring. I draw strength from reading your posts which, despite everything that has occured, are full of hope. I'm so glad to have found your blog because many days I look to it to remember that amidst the pain, great things await (though those great things may be different than what I had planned). Thank you!