"Self pity is our worst enemy, and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in the world."
- Helen Keller1880-1968, Blind and Deaf Educator

Friday, November 7, 2008

The waiting game

Ok- so we did the deed yesterday- I stayed lying down pretty much all day and night, other than my acupuncture appointment. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can...get pregnant. May this be a nice and easy process.

Now for the dark side- I have been crying all day. I am filled with fear and grief. How much can one person take? I think I have had my share now. I just need to remind myself that sometimes it takes a few months to get pregnant. What if I just think about something completely different?

What can I think about? I don't know. I can really drive myself crazy over this. Ok- any ideas? What is the soonest I can take a pregnancy test? I am scheduled to take a blood test on 11/23- a Sunday. I will find a lab open for this, but I bet I won't get my results back until Monday.

Breathe in. Breathe out. Each day brings me closer to my baby.


Travelwahine said...

I'm praying for you. I'm praying for both of us, please BFP.

I know, I feel the same way, with the grief. How much can we take? Then I look around and see everyone else pop out babies like nothing. Why is it so hard???

We go in for our follicle scan tomorrow, CD 13. I'm hoping we can do the IUI Monday but we'll see.

When I was pregnant the last time, I tested with a home pregnancy test 9 days after the IUI. And I did get a faint positive, then I tested the following day and it was darker. Finally, I did get the blood and it was a BFP.

You know you can go to the Emergency Department. As long as you have your blood lab order you can check in as outpatient. Where I work at we usuallly just get the patient registered, then draw the blood and send them on their way. This way, your doctor will have the lab results first thing Monday morning.


Lorraine said...

I am wishing for the most thankful Thanksgiving for you!

robinbird said...

You asked for suggestions on what to think about...I would suggest spring bulbs. I am planting the little bulbs today and thinking of the beautiful flowers to emerge this coming spring.--colorful tulips, fragrant hyacinths and sweet daffodils. Love you.

Natalie said...

*hugs* I am thinking about you. I don't know why it's so hard for some of us... especially after such a tragic loss. It's like we ought to get a free coupon on this, at least. :(

I Believe in Miracles said...

I'm hopeful for you. Breath in. Breath out. Try not to stress, cause it really doesn't help. I know it's a lot easier said than done.

Travelwahine said...

Thinking of you. How are you doing with the 2ww.

We go in tomorrow for our IUI.

Keep your fingers crossed, it would be awesome for us to be pregnant together.

a nearby friend said...

Be strong and patient - good things will come to you - you are a good person with a big heart and lot's of life to give - don't stress your self (easier said than done) - Good luck my thoughts as well as many others are with you - thinking and hoping for wonderful outcomes for you!


Kim said...

I am keeping my fingers crossed for you!