"Self pity is our worst enemy, and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in the world."
- Helen Keller1880-1968, Blind and Deaf Educator

Monday, October 27, 2008

Tomorrow, Tomorrow, I love you tomorrow...

I go for my day 3 scan tomorrow. I am nervous and excited all at once. I think it might be, in part, the emotional time of the month, but I have been very weepy today. I have all these hopes and dreams. I am sad that this journey has been so tumultuous. I am sad at how the last pregnancy went. I am frustrated that the process this time has been so difficult. I think I need to speak my mind tomorrow- it doesn't have to be that hard- it shouldn't be.

I want to give myself the space to relax and not build up everything on this first month. Even fertile women don't always get pregnant in one month. I need to keep perspective. On the other hand, my hormone levels were good, my uterus is in good shape. Why not me? Why not now?

For now though, I am just going to open myself up to the possibility that my dream can come true for me this time.


Zil said...

"A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true"

~A Dream Is A Wish Your Heart Makes Lyrics~

I wish you the best today!

Cara said...

I love that song, truly love it. Hold tight to those lyrics.

I'll be thinking of you.


I Believe in Miracles said...

I hope everything exceeds your expectations tomorrow. Be thinking about you.

angelspot said...

Keeping you in my prayers....

Travelwahine said...

YAY! Let's get pregnant together. I had my CD 2 sono 10/28
Sounds like we're right there, almost same time line. I'm taking Menopur 75 IU, what are you taking.

I'll be praying for you and me. Please, God grant us our babies.