"Self pity is our worst enemy, and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in the world."
- Helen Keller1880-1968, Blind and Deaf Educator

Saturday, August 2, 2008

The email after the loss

It is with much sadness that I report in my latest update. Last Saturday, I prematurely delivered our daughter at 19 weeks gestation. Sally Ann died in childbirth.

My water broke while we were in Puerto Rico almost three weeks ago. We attempted to save the pregnancy by my going on total bed rest at a local hospital. My insurance company spared no expense to hire a private medical Learjet/air ambulance to get me back to a Massachusetts hospital (I hear it cost 50K), but there was little anyone could do but hope that the fluid would re-accumulate. It did not.

I was in labor for 22 hours. Sally was born on July 26, 2008 at 11:09 am, weighing just 7 oz and was 9 inches long. She was beautiful- fully formed with fingernails, big feet (like dad) and cute little ears.

The greatest gift that Sally gave me was renewed hope that I can and will be a mother.

1 comment:

Rebecca said...

Lisa, when I got your email I was so heartbroken for you. I felt sick. Thank you for sharing your story. At the time I could only imagine what you had gone through. This makes it all the more realy and makes me feel like can in a sense be there with you, across time and space. Know that you are in my thoughts and I am pulling for you and Doug every step of the way