My doctor's appointment went very well- or actually just as I had expected. I will need to redo a bunch of tests, timed on different days, and so we decided (she decided) that I will not begin my next cycle until next month. No surprise here.
The frustrating part is that, when I went to make an appointment to regroup with her after all the tests (why do I even need that meeting? We will be redoing the protocol we did last time), she has nothing open for 6 weeks. So they expect me to wait another month because she can't fit me in to regroup? You have got to be joking! I called everyone and their mother at the clinic, pratically begging for something sooner. I absolutely will not wait. That is the stuff that just makes me blow my top!
They tried to calm me down by telling me that there are always cancellations and that I am on the list for one of those. Ok, for now, but if I have to come in there on my own and demand to see her, I will.
I guess what I have learned is that I don't have to be the good little girl and do what I am told. This is my body, my fertility, my family. I will do whatever I need to in order to create my family.
I can't believe how much I miss someone I never really knew. I move along each day feeling like, Yes- I am going to make it. Then, in an instant, I feel like I don't even know if I can.
Breathe in, breathe out. Each day brings me closer to the family of my dreams. I can't wait to share the good story of Sally Ann with my children. I will share the gift she gave to me in her short existence here on earth. Maybe we will all sit down by her tree some day and this pain I have will have found some meaning.
Still here…14 years later
1 year ago
4 comments:
"I guess what I have learned is that I don't have to be the good little girl and do what I am told. This is my body, my fertility, my family."
YES - YES - YES!!!! Good for you! Hey...just a suggestion...intend that phone call telling you about a cancellation...I've done it and IT WORKED!
Getting appointments is often so frustrating. Call daily until you get what you want. I've done it. It works. No shame in that. :o)
Good for you! I will definitely be more proactive in my own care the next time I get pregnant (fingers crossed).
I know it can be frustrating, but it sounds like you are being persistent. That's the best way to be.
Thinking of you.
"I can't believe how much I miss someone I barely knew." It's amazing, I know. I totally relate with the - okay, I'm okay...then, it hits you like a ton of bricks.
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